TORN

Between a rock and a hard place, quite frankly. I want to be the best mum in the whole wide world, but I am a workaholic by choice.

Stormy & Me Bloom Collection

I love my jobs ALL of them... To run a baby clothing business, launching new collections, collaborating with Aussie artists, and releasing sell-out collections. The side hustle that is booming.

To be a high school performing arts teacher - literally influencing the future of this country. Putting on huge productions and producing/directing several plays a year - a dream, really. Launching a new production company last year that is selling itself by word of mouth at the moment, as there is only one of me and I am being pulled in so many directions. Self-publishing 6 plays that are hard copy texts now being sold and used in drama classrooms across the nation.

How do I stop what I am doing with the cost of living and just be present with my kids?... For some people, this is an easy answer... but for me, it is hard because I don't want to!

I am on the cusp of something out of this world, but there are not enough hours in the day to tick everything off. People often say to me, how do I do it all?

The answer is... I get up at 5 am on a Sunday, go to the farmer's market, and meal prep on Sundays before my kids get up. We pay a cleaner that does the deep cleans, I don't watch TV anymore, and I go to bed by 7:30 pm so that I get enough sleep to function and not burn out. I work when my kids nap - I am finding this the hardest part now as Stormy (my 3-year-old) has just dropped his nap. I work on my businesses in the school holidays when I probably should be taking a mental break. People always say, why do you do this to yourself... I LOVE IT... my businesses aren't painful, I don't moan and groan - I LOVE THEM. They are my gifts to share with the world - my playwriting, in particular, is something I sit down to do and my hands just start typing, it's actually nuts. They are right when they say 70% of people will be unhappy in their jobs for their whole lives, and only a small percentage of people will ever go out and chase their dreams and follow their passions.

I always have these moments where I try to fit in, be normal, do the bare minimum, work a 9-5 job, and have 4 weeks of holidays a year... but what do you get out of that? It's not enough for me... It's that old saying... why blend in when you are born to stand out.

I have beautiful people around me - I love them all... but have I found my people?... Those 5 people every successful person speaks of that you need in your life so they push you, lift you up, inspire you and motivate you. I feel like at times I am that for most people around me but who is that for me. I read something years ago that I really have tried to live by...

What is your PLAN A - THE DREAM, THE END GOAL... because if your PLAN B is too time-consuming, you will never ever get the PLAN A you dreamed of.

My Plan A is a life of pure chaos filled with businesses, entrepreneurial sh*t that quite frankly has fallen on my lap and I am called to do. It's selling a musical to Broadway, it's launching my brother's artistry career through my baby clothing business, it's writing, producing and directing tv series and films, it's being that one teacher that impacted a student so much they went on to make amazing life choices that they forever remember you as "THE TEACHER THAT GAVE A SH*T". It's saying yes to whatever show, play, TV series, film, or book I want to write, direct, or produce because I can and I am called to do so. I guess... I just needed to get this off my chest.

So many times people say to me, I never hear from you, I haven't seen you in ages, you're always so busy... But I am over here trying to BUILD AN EMPIRE... I have to get all my talents off my chest or I feel like I am not doing what I was born to do. And... people think of me as crazy. ADHD at times (most commonly used to describe my life lol even though I don't have a diagnosis) but... deep down I just think they are jealous or unsatisfied with how they are living through their talents/gifts/passions, so I'm just gonna let them sit in that.

If you know me well enough, you would know my words to live by, as my beautiful father taken too soon would say, "We are not here for a long time, we are here for a good time,". And his other one... "Have a go you mug!" That's the end of my ted talk LOL if you got this far thank you for reading... sorry it's been so long. Love Bliss xx